8.0 Richter Scale.

He waited for it, for a long time. It eluded him, so he wanted it.
The more he tried the more disappointed he became. And then everything was centered around it. He assumed it to be the source of it all. And he looked forward to it. Kept him on his toes.

Assumptions became opinions that evolved to judgments which altered perspectives and shaped habits. He had forgotten what he had wrote down few years ago...it said :
" The circle starts the moment you expect or assume. "
He had peeled off the first..and it did change him..and it was a good change.

It might be that he was a reflection of the society around him and when his surroundings changed, so did the reflection. Or he evolved differently without it in his life. But it was not just about simply having it. He craved to branded as different and that was very important to him. Power never allured him..however individualism did.

Standing in his own shadow always groping for the light.

And one day when it happened. He got what he was waiting for.
But the coin flipped. Amazingly it landed on the other side and he was completely bewildered.

He might have forced himself to it. He had wanted it so intensely and it was there right in front of him. So he grabbed it without awareness. It burned him. His own mind did. The colors changed so instantly it made him anxious and nervous. He became confused and sadness crept in. Everything for this, all the effort and its there but its not right. He suddenly became aware of his habits and wondered where they stemmed from. Suddenly for one instant he felt as if all there was to it, was already there.

Needs and desires. Need is need. Desire is a bottomless pit.
It was time to turn back. Time for awareness. He wondered if he could.
But he knew very if he did not he would never be the same again.
The road would simply end ahead.

But what does he look forward to now ?